Little Yellow Kitten

awwh this weekend has been great





first starting on friday i got in a huge fight with my mom which kind of sucked.



she can be so crazy mean sometimes.



but i drove into deer lodge and saw james



that made me feel all happy again. we watched some of the griz game and wrestled in the basement.



it was pretty fun



me, james, and jessica were all gonna hang out for james's rebellion weekend, but jess was a little late coming back from billings so i ended up staying at james's



i felt really bad because i thought that james's parents thought i was just making excuses or something to stay..i dont know that doesnt even make sense..i just get so paranoid



it all worked out though



we had a little sleepover and we played some wii games with jake.



pretty soon james's mom came down and i slept up in james's room



it was so cozy



after staying with james it felt like i got a lot closer...which is pretty dang close



i really am the happiest when i'm around him



he just makes me feel better about everything.. and it's always nice to know for sure that they feel the same way



awwhh



its so wonderdelightecstatically perfect....









On Sunday



i drove home early and then went to church





i'm still tired





i dont want schooooooll noooooo





but i think this weekend got me refreshed to last another week





so i will live...





which is good : )

take it easy on me

do you ever wonder what friends you'll have for the rest of your life. like what will happen when you start to get older.

time scares me.

I look at a lot of people and think.. I dont think i'll ever remember this person when i'm old. that depresses me. I start to think how I haven't became that close to many people this last year.

After I started getting depressed thinking about that last night.. I thought about it this morning and realized how many people I really am close to.

I do have people that care about me.. and there is many people that I will think back and remember them.

so what if we don't keep up forever with each other. Our memories will still stay there.

That makes me feel happy.

I dont know why I think about this now

sometimes I just can't help but think about the future.

years go by fast

I think its because me and ry we're talking about our grandmas and how we missed them so much.

It doesnt even feel that long ago. I lose track.

most of that I just push back and pretend like it never happened. but it did and it does.

my great uncle is dying and it doesnt seem long ago at all when he was passing out candy on Halloween.

time is going too fast for me.

Maybe when thanksgiving comes things will slow down again when I see all my family. Me, andrew, and curtis will go off and do the same things we do every year.. things that haven't seemed to change like everything else.

oh well

that was my emotional input of the month or so

school has been ok I don't have any hard classes so that makes it better.

on Halloween I went trick or treating

I felt like a teenager trying to be a rebel even though everyone else is doing it.

Next year I just want to sit at home and pass out candy.

that seems to be just fine to me.. i like to see all the little kids trick or treating its cute.

I've been so tired this whole week

every morning I keep sleeping in more and more

When basketball starts it will be even worse.. I'll have no time

I'm also tired of everyones so called "drama" its so stupid

I hate it when anyone even says that word because its so ...just dumb

nobody cares about pointless he said she said things...ecspecially me

so stop telling me

i DONT care

I think I've gotten meaner this year.. but I've also gotten less shy

connection? I think so.

I just want to sleep, watch cartoons, draw a picture... then lay out in the grass by kittens playing with my toes.

awwhh I cant wait till spring