thats all i have to say..about that

on saturday night me, chy, james, joe, and dillon for a little while went to the helena fair.

it was amaaazinnnng

me and james went on the ferris wheel..had to wait in line for one for awhile but it was definitely worth it.. joe and chy went on their crazy rides...ggaaaay haha

i was pretty stoked to see james because i hadn't seen him in awhile. it seems like i adjust to not

seeing him for a long time and i can handle it, but then once i finally do see him i have to start all

over and readjust to not thinking about him every 2 seconds...but still thinking about him

but this week shouldnt be a big deal anyway, i'm

just gonna be there for like a couple days its

kind of pointless...but oh well

nothing too exciting goes on there...i clean constantly, cook, then clean more....then wait and then sleep

i like their dogs though they are fun. one of got cut by the mower and i had to wrap it. it was pretty gruesome.

today rylee called me and asked me if i wanted to help her build a dam...and of course i said yes. it was way fun. we built it in her crick and it only got to barely our knees. we found a bouncy ball that looked like a meatball. at first we thought it was a weird rock but once i threw it..it came back it was pretty awesome haha.

then we tried taking pictures of ourselves underwater...it was a tough

then bo threw rocks at us.. and i got mad at sutton because he took the damn dirtbike from me. i was so mad. we got in a tussle and he pushed me in the gravel and i got all scraped up.

stupid button.

oh welll he made cupcakes later so i forgave him

today i started painting again and this time i think it has a chance...

i've been super tired all day

but i want to stay up all night

wondelightfully gogreat

i have to leave on monday to start my summer job.

i'm a little depressed about it. it wont be too bad though hopefully. i hope i dont eff things up like messing up on the casseroles haha.


but i definitely had an awesome weekend before this weeks about to start.

me and chy went camping on thursday.


it was crazy fun.


we did it in just the spur of the moment. we didnt pay or anything that night haha. we just grabbed a tent annd a sleeping bag and went up.


we tried to stay up while sittin criss crossed at the campfire in the dirt. we ran out of things to talk about after awhile haha.

i also had to drag a huge stump there too haha it was so funny.



friday night joe, james, and david all came down to stay.

it was great fun.

i finally got to actually hang out with joe and david. they are a lot of fun.

i got to know joe more and found out more about him. it made me feel good that there's someone else out there who occasionaly drools lol.

me and chy's tent broke it was a sad sight. but i was still proud of it.

everyone went to sleep around 3ish i guess except me and james who were set on staying up till 4 even though we had no way of knowing the time without being lazy. i think i dozed off a few times.

me and james had some good talks. i'm glad i got to tell him some stuff that i usually dont get to say.

he is mmmmmmaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzinnnnnnnnnng


in the morning it was hot and stuffy and i had no sleep. chy and i got into a little bit of a tussle because she was being monsterous and took my damn pillow lol.

the phillips family and the boys went on they're bicycle adventure while me and chy tried to sleep with the bugs outside.

after awhile we made our way to big rock.

joe and james got to go swimmin with us.

it was fun.

seth and river teased me. but i'm used to it and it doesnt bug me too much.

but sometimes it gets a little annoying.


it was sad to see our friends joe and james leave me and chy but they probably needed to go i bet they were extremely tired.


i went home and sleep. chy ate chinese.


rylee came down to get me and woke me up and told me to come down to big rock . i think i was half asleep haha. i told i'd be down there in a half an hour haha. but as soon as she left i was dead again.



wellllllllllllllllllllllllll now im back on the computer and i'm feeling a little depressed like ever year.

i just dont want to miss out on anything.


i will also go mental not being able to hang out with chy or talk to james.


but i cant complain much i still have saturday and sunday to myself.





i'll most likely live again

i love you sharpie

well this is going to be a long one.....

we went to transfomers on tuesday with brian, chy, and james. it was pretty good. all of my family went camping instead. i felt a little bad at first but then i was so happy i didnt go because i missed my dad acting stupid and my mom catching seth puke at 5 in the morning, from drinking all night.

after we went to transformers we walked down this creepy alley to starbucks..im not gonna lie i was a little anxious to get back to the car. buuut i survived. me and chy decided that we needed to stop by big rock. it was really warm. i wanted to jump in so bad, but we seen someone there that we didnt know just sitting there. no one wanted to ask who it was till brian finally said helllooo. it was just shanna. i was so excited and i was laughing so much. i dont mind shanna anymore she is alright to me these days.

me and chy jumped in finally. i was wearing a jean skirt and it was really awkward to swim. next time i do that i'm just gonna strip down because honestly i really don't care if someone sees me in my underwear that is equalivent to my bikini.

it was warm....afterwards i was cold.

went to my house got joe's guitar tried to squish a spider(failed).

the next day i went down to the senecal homestead with my mom. i was pretty excited because i wanted to see everyone. the homestead was this old beat up cabin that my great great grandpa had when they moved cows and what not over there. you cant stay there now. but anyway its been handed down to my great uncle george and its just tradition all the senecal cousins go down there on the 4th. even my mom did when she was a kid.

me and my mom decided that we wanted to hike to louis lake. someone told us it was just a mile over the hills....well theres a lot of hills. my mom was so determined to find it. we hike all over. and got chased by some angry horses haha it was funny. i was pretty tired but my mom wanted to find it. soon enough we gave up and walked back to homestead. the crick felt sooo good.

after that i found my cousin allyson(drake's little sister) we only get to see each other at the 4th so it was cool we got to hang out, and she was the only female cousin my age there. we found my little cousin riley and had an intense water fight. haha he really did drench me. but i got him pretty good.

then doug took us on his annual jeep ride all over the hills and what not. riley fell asleep on my lap he was so cute. sutton threw a firecracker and it accidently landed by me and sawyer it burnt my elbow. but not bad.

at night allyson and bailey wanted to ambush the boys with some saturn missiles i was up for it until we got closer and i realized that i am very gun shy/ scared of firecrackers lol. and i chickened out. i'm glad i listened to my instinct because troy had some firecrackers and drake had some of his own staturn missiles and was throwing right back at them. i think i would of cried. we then followed tradition and lit some sparklers, and grabbed a blanket to watch the fireworks. me and allyson were a little close and some of the artillery shells were a little low. i just heard my uncle johnny yell "get down" haha and we just rolled into our blanket so we didnt get hit from sparks. after all the excitement..smores sounded pretty dang good.

later on me and allyson made our way up to the grown up fire and listened to their funny stories about getting in trouble and having parties, and also knowing that the boys were stealing their alocohol and thinking they had been so sneeky about it. haha its so funny when you get up to the homestead its just a bunch of family and its not that big of a deal for some of the highschoolers to pop out a beer when the adults aren't around.

when all of the old people decided to hit the sack trent, seth, drew duncan, drake, and troy took over the fire.

me and allyson listened to their stories...i have no idea how long we were out there or how late.

we finally headed up to the tent thing but on our way there we heard some noises. we shined the flash light over there only to find uncle eddy in his whitey tidies haha it was great it was just perfect timing i couldnt stop laughing.

we woke up to drakes sparkler bomb the next day. it was a big one.

by the end of this i was covered in dirt from head to toe. my knees were stratched up, mosquito bites all over, and i was extremely tired. awwwwh it felt good. thats the way your supposed to feel if you spent your time at the homestead the right way.

summer is starting to feel like its slipping away because we are almost half way through july.

it well all be ok though

i might get to see james tomorrow

iiiiiiiiiii aaaaaammmmmmmmmm stoooooookkkkkkkkkkkeed

15 ft waves

i hung out with james 3 days in a row...i hope he is not sick of me lol

thursday night i was there till 12 and i felt pretty bad considering it was a week day and his parents were probably wondering what i was doing there.

friday night we went to brian's and watched uncle buck and i played with an etchy sketch (which i effing love!) that was pretty fun

saturday night me and chy went to james's but brian wasn't there. i felt bad for chy for awhile.

it was still fun. me and jamesy watched an awesome cake decorator make scooby doo. i want to be able to do that some day. later i felt pretty gay because i felt stupid like people had to drag me around all the time. it just kind of made me feel bad and dumb.

i had another crazy dream last night

here's how it went...

i don't remember all of it but i was in jail because i messed up on something but jail was outside and it was like a little dome of bars. i shared my dome thing with ashley kent, trent, rylee, and maybe seth. we just stayed in sleeping bags there. i was having a drawing competition with someone who said they were better. i had to be in jail for 6 months. then... i'm not sure what all happened. but for some reason we were having a memorial/ new funeral for my grandma and i had to pour this tea mixed with stuff over something. i cried just as much as i did before. and everyone thought it was stupid. but i couldnt help it even though it had been a long time. ....then my dream sorta of died off and it got mixed up with a bunch of different things like me riding tiny motorbike with rylee haha

but jeez my dreams have been a little weird.

i have exactly 20 days before i have to go work and learn to cook

i better live it up