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i had the craziest dream last night


first........ i was at this library/bank thing and i was on one of the computers and i was sitting next to this lady who was like in her 20s and was an art teacher (looked like ms. ainsworth). she asked me if i was better than some of her students and i was like bragging and i told her yeah. then we wanted to leave. for some reason we weren't allowed to. so this huge guy held off these guards and we ran out. it was raining hardcore and i couldn't even see but i just kept running, then i got to the elliston school i looked around and saw two people, they looked like bo and troy, so i kept running from them like i was playing kick the can. i thought i could run to rylee's house, but when i got there i realized it was my own house. i banged on the door and rung the door bell but my mom wouldn't let me in. i begged forever and she finally opened the door. when i got inside there was this length wise mirror and i walked inside of it (kinda like alice in wonderland).....i'm not sure what happened after that but i think was happy.


so yeah it was a pretty weird dream, i'm not sure what all of it mean though.



basketball camp is this week, last night wasn't too bad as i thought it'd be. i decided that i really don't suck i'm just average and i shouldn't compare myself all the time to people like danni and syd.

Strawberry Lime

summer is just starting to get good

it's been really hot out and i'm starting to get tan...kinda scares me considering i dont have to be outside very long to get a vicious tan line.

i made an s sticker and stuck it on me all day and layed outside...it worked pretty good.. its sweet

big rock is the place to be these days and i've already floated the river.

I was supposed to go to the lake with chy this weekend and go camping with the fam but it sounds like i wont.

i want to do so much this summer but i think the more i talk about it the more time i waste

basketball camp is next week it should be ok

i hope seth brings me into deer lodge this weekend

he always promises me he will..but never holds on to it

sometimes i just want to scream at him..but i do understand why he doesnt want to drag his little sister around, i wouldnt want to bring my little brothers

i dont have to work till july 20

so im pretty stoked

sizzzling 7up

last weekend was pretty great

it was my cousin's tara's wedding reception and all my cousins came down.

andrew and curtis are my closest cousins because we're all the same age. i have an awesome time with them we got a lot of stories.

katie also came down and that made me happy because i havent seen her in awhile.

we mainly just chilled out and watched my uncles get drunk....my dad was pretty embarrassing haha i wont get into that

this week is church camp.

it is so boring now. we pray and we color.

and thats it

lol oh well its probably good for me

lately though it seems like i've been doing a ton of stuff that i really dont feel like doing

and people have been having a lot more control over what they think i should do

also i hate how things have to be planned or routine...why cant things just been spontaneous and fun

oh well......it will get better

i just need to stop worrying about stupid things and i need to start taking advantage of elliston and go camping every once in awhile.

im still not sure on the job situation......

maybe i should just like the fact that i dont have to do anything right now till july

i've been tired again

i dont know why

and i've also been having some rather craaaazy dreams that i cant recall at the moment but they were pretty strange

i miss bo and troy

i haven't took a hike/floated the river/ played kick the can with those crazy hooligans in a long time

i hope i hang out with them soon before they're too cool for me lol

laziness

wow

it is way too cold out to be summer

there is nothing i can do right now...and lately i've been sleeping all day

sometimes i'll sleep even when i'm not even tired

i think i do it just for something to do, because everytime i do i dream about something.

today's dream was really weird....

me, james, and some freshmen snuck out from somewhere at night and went down to a river to swim, even though it was too high. we got there and no one else wanted to swim anymore, but i still jumped in right away. the river was too fast and i couldn't get on the rock ledge, but i wasn't even that scared. then someone pulled me out.

it was crazy

after i woke up i got up and i took a step, except my foot was asleep and it slid right from under me, just like someone would fall on ice. it was so crazy, i've never had that happen to me lol.

i went to james's house again today and it was fun, i'm glad we've been hanging out a lot lately and i hope it will be like that this summer

there's a basketball tournament that i might play on sunday and i really don't want to. i dont even like basketball that much but i always feel like i have to. maybe if i get better in something else i wont play anymore.

i'm downloading soo many country songs

and i dont care what you haters say lol

crabapples

Last day of school....tomorrow

it is a little depressing because ...first of all i won't hardly see my friends hopefully not including james and i will miss being a dumb freshman (as crazy as that sounds)

oh well


it will be a ton of fun next year


I was so happy today!


I couldn't stop smiling when i got on the bus...chy thought i was stoned haha




A guy from Germany stayed at our house last night

it was way cool

my mom was paranoid even if he was way nice haha

she made us lock our doors and didnt sleep ... the WHOLE night hahaha
she is funny

I went to james's before i went home and it was fun

even though everytime his dad asks me something im like ..."huh?....something something...mumble"

it is so gay

i need to learn how to talk/ hear and not be so shy

seth made me so mad the other day, he just left me after school

he always does that to me

it drives me seriously crazy

this is a towel suit pretty sweet eh?