rainy days in the snow

wow basketball is almost halfway done


weird...


I'm glad that i decided to do basketball.. it can be a huge pain and extremely stressful but i guess i stay busy.

A normal day consists of me waking up riding with seth to school..getting there just before the bell (every time).. then sittin in school... practice......and finally i get home around 7 or sometimes 8ish

i get home and eat, call james, and sleep

it gets so routine which sucks because things just start to blurr but i dont know how else to do it.

I also wrecked my mom's car....pretty intensely scary


it wasn't horrible but it did kinda shake me up i dont know if i'm a good driver anymore even if it wasnt that much of my fault oh well

wrecking the car put a huge stress on me because now there arent as many vehicles at my house for us to get around in... the little car is getting worked on so we just have the blue truck...HUGE GAS HOG...which sucks because gas is pretty darn expensive now.

i hate having to take turns paying for gas with seth..it leaves me so broke all the time..

plus we need a place to stay once seth's morning practices start..

theres no apartments in deer lodge that we can stay at without being in an old hospital or above a bar.

sooooo.... not really sure on that

i dont know what we're going to do

its nice to just put it back in your head and forget about it for awhile


christmas break is so nice...


christmas was also nice



i baked so much before christmas it was kinda fun to help mom and what not. On christmas eve we went to my aunt amy's where we had a scavenger hunt

ivy and mom were on my team

my aunt amy had all these clues and prizes hiding around elliston and we had to go find them before everyone else

it was cool

most of the clues were questions about places in elliston i didnt really know about like where old hotels were.. my mom knew a few but we had to go to cheat and go to the bar to ask some people


after our scavenger hunt we went to my grandma and grandpa johnson's. it was alright. not very fun. I hardly talk to any of my relatives there and i just feel weird there

its always so crowded because my grandma sold the farm for a new little house..everything is just different none of the traditions are hardly there anymore.

when we got home there was a bonfire still going on up at my aunt amy's, but i was pretty tired so i just stuck around at the house.

i went to bed early but my cousin andrew came and woke me up

we stayed up watching tv and finally went to bed

christmas morning was pretty cool

i got a digital camera that i didnt even expect. i didnt think i'd even get as much as i did. it was pretty exciting.

james got me a really cute zip up sweat shirt, a bag, and some sweet pajama pants

marne also got me some griz shorts and lip gloss


they are too good to me


we had dinner at our house so all the senecal relatives came down

i really like that side of the family and all the cousins are pretty dang awesome so it was a pretty fun time

finally all the cousins left and things have mellowed out a lot

sooo much leftovers still..mmmmmmm...


i've been wanting to go to a movie during the break but things just keep not working out. i really want to because i wont have a lot of weekends left because of basketball games.

i dunnoooo...i hate getting excited and then disappointed

i feel very babyish when i get all sad over it but it just sucks you know


oh welll.... i'm just frustated because there is nothing to do here


and i dont want to spend my break doing nothing


its getting harder to go to deer lodge just to hang out now too because we have to drive there every day for practice

now we have to start saving trips and try to avoid going as much


i dont know


i shouldn't complain

i am pretty happy right now

thanks to my best friend the one and only..du duh duhhh....cheyeennnnnee


and of course the boyfreind who makes me feel bettter all time..JA JA JAaaaaaaaaaaaaames


so things are good


but really lets get some snow instead of just cold

that would be delightful


oooor..lets just skip to spring


that would be amazing

Little Yellow Kitten

awwh this weekend has been great





first starting on friday i got in a huge fight with my mom which kind of sucked.



she can be so crazy mean sometimes.



but i drove into deer lodge and saw james



that made me feel all happy again. we watched some of the griz game and wrestled in the basement.



it was pretty fun



me, james, and jessica were all gonna hang out for james's rebellion weekend, but jess was a little late coming back from billings so i ended up staying at james's



i felt really bad because i thought that james's parents thought i was just making excuses or something to stay..i dont know that doesnt even make sense..i just get so paranoid



it all worked out though



we had a little sleepover and we played some wii games with jake.



pretty soon james's mom came down and i slept up in james's room



it was so cozy



after staying with james it felt like i got a lot closer...which is pretty dang close



i really am the happiest when i'm around him



he just makes me feel better about everything.. and it's always nice to know for sure that they feel the same way



awwhh



its so wonderdelightecstatically perfect....









On Sunday



i drove home early and then went to church





i'm still tired





i dont want schooooooll noooooo





but i think this weekend got me refreshed to last another week





so i will live...





which is good : )

take it easy on me

do you ever wonder what friends you'll have for the rest of your life. like what will happen when you start to get older.

time scares me.

I look at a lot of people and think.. I dont think i'll ever remember this person when i'm old. that depresses me. I start to think how I haven't became that close to many people this last year.

After I started getting depressed thinking about that last night.. I thought about it this morning and realized how many people I really am close to.

I do have people that care about me.. and there is many people that I will think back and remember them.

so what if we don't keep up forever with each other. Our memories will still stay there.

That makes me feel happy.

I dont know why I think about this now

sometimes I just can't help but think about the future.

years go by fast

I think its because me and ry we're talking about our grandmas and how we missed them so much.

It doesnt even feel that long ago. I lose track.

most of that I just push back and pretend like it never happened. but it did and it does.

my great uncle is dying and it doesnt seem long ago at all when he was passing out candy on Halloween.

time is going too fast for me.

Maybe when thanksgiving comes things will slow down again when I see all my family. Me, andrew, and curtis will go off and do the same things we do every year.. things that haven't seemed to change like everything else.

oh well

that was my emotional input of the month or so

school has been ok I don't have any hard classes so that makes it better.

on Halloween I went trick or treating

I felt like a teenager trying to be a rebel even though everyone else is doing it.

Next year I just want to sit at home and pass out candy.

that seems to be just fine to me.. i like to see all the little kids trick or treating its cute.

I've been so tired this whole week

every morning I keep sleeping in more and more

When basketball starts it will be even worse.. I'll have no time

I'm also tired of everyones so called "drama" its so stupid

I hate it when anyone even says that word because its so ...just dumb

nobody cares about pointless he said she said things...ecspecially me

so stop telling me

i DONT care

I think I've gotten meaner this year.. but I've also gotten less shy

connection? I think so.

I just want to sleep, watch cartoons, draw a picture... then lay out in the grass by kittens playing with my toes.

awwhh I cant wait till spring

i'm a witch!!

cross country is over now

its kinda of a relief because now i wont be so stressed and busy finding rides and what not.

but it is a little sad

now i have to decide on if i'll do basketball

shucks


this weekend has been amazing


it seemed to have went on for so long


now it'll be hard to get into school mode...awwh depressssssing haha


me and chy went to helena on thursday bought some hats and just chilled out in helena forever

it was a lot of fun


we just kinda went around everywhere


her birthday is this weekend

i am stoked


on friday me and james had quite the adventure.. made some amazing hot chocolate

TOP SECRET RECIPE!!!

it was one of the funniest things i've done in a long time

he is the greatest


i never get bored of him

i could probably go on forever talking about it


saturday was cold meet in helena and then volleyball game......and

then watched james's cute home videos lol



suuunnday = today


its been boring tried to get crafty then messed up


then ate lots of banana bread

yuummmm....

POP!

this year is starting to get good


i mean it does start to get really boring on days but i've also gotten a lot closer to people i haven't really been close to before

also this year i didnt have to "break out of my shell" i guess you could say lol

i'm not so shy around everyone


sooo... *recap



friday: football game, it was pretty awesome and afterwards we got some amazing huckleberry

milkshakes


saturday: cross country meet in butte...that kind of sucked because it was snowing and i really

sucked it up... i dont know if i could of done better or not.. it just sucks when you go in thinking

you'll do ok and then just let all these people pass you up


ouch


james came though and that brightened me up.


theeen... chy stayed over and we made a TON of carmel corn, watched/danced to cheezy love
movie, and watched scary movie while falling asleep on the couch


i hadnt had a night with chy like that in awhile

so it was pretty fun


sunnnnnndaday: james came over to see me, it was amazing sunday we layed in the grass,

played with kittens, and layed down by big rock

the whole day just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside it was a nice way to end a weekend


i just love that loser lol



schoooooooool



is ok



i get to paint..


it'll be fun

you are too sweet sunday

awwh


this morning felt like christmas


i think it's because yesterday was so amazing that it just put me in that mood.


yesterday i had a the mountain west meet in missoula.. it was pretty awesome


i knew i wasnt there to place but i really wanted my time at least under 24

and i made 23:45


so that made me happy.


then right after the coziest bus ride home i got to see james

we took the cheeka to a river and then watched the office in his basement


it fulfilled my last summer day


when i got home i just crashed out on my bed

i had so many good feelings inside it just made me sleep so good


i got up early and everyone else was up too

it felt like christmas morning


we all talked about stuff


my dad showed me pictures of him running at mountain west in the 70's haha..same hill but looks completely different


it was so cold and rainy out but our house was very warm and i ate lots of junk food

also visited rylee


we dont see each other much cause of school

but i usually save a sunday for her


it was a pretty good weekend i'd say


i hope i get some more of those to keep this year from dulling out

poor shelby

ahhh geez



dissapointment=ouch



i keep wanting to get better and feel good after i race..but the last 2 i feel like a loser and afterwards i say to myself..huh yeah you coulda done better

but at the time i feel like i'm dying



its pretty much gay



i hope i seriously do better on saturday even though i know i wont place good.... i just want a good time and thats all.



so yeeeah....

there's no food at the house and i made my macaroni into soup


....i'm sick



annnnnnd thats about i'll i have to whine about

good grief

homecoming

was MMMMMAAAAAAAAAZING


the first few days didnt feel like any special but that weekend was pretty great.


the dance was kinda lame but james did do some dancing and i was pretty proud of him


afterwards we kept the party going behind 4bs in the freezing cold with some dorritos.


hung out with jess a ton and watched lots of lifetime.


since then i've beeen sick


its not too bad but i do sound like a man


the last cross country meet i skipped out on because i felt pretty sick

i felt stupid....weak.....and a huge loser at the time

but now i think i really did do the right thing


i'm just nervous now for our next meets


i feel like i'm to scared to do good because i dont want to die at the finish


i'll just have to get over that


this weekend i've slept a lot


it felt good


james came to visit me too

he rocks my wooorld


it pretty much made my night..we watched some disney movies with my sweet ghetto vcr..

its been through it alllll


....todaaaaay i got my bangs cut just like i used to back in the day.. i guess i missed those little buggers...there was a big fire in helena too it was pretty depressing



me and mom cleaaned a huge retreat cabin thing up the blackfoot


it looks huge but its designs pretty weird it like tricks you..i guess


i dont want to go to school tomorrow really


i hate stress


and i hate homework


..and i hate leaving stuff everywhere




goooood grief

the wheels go round

SUMMER

sad..its gone

went too fast for me.

got to hang out with my old bud chy... we have good times together

my other half pretty much.


got to see boyfriend..(aka)james..(aka)loserface...(aka) best thing that ever happened to me

we've had some good times

just keeps getting better.


FaMilllllly..


its the same nothing too much has changed

dad still drinks on the weekend listening to the saturday 70's show......me and sutton still chase

each other.....seth still dances in the hall....

sawyer still stays wide eyed....and mom still laughs till she cries

miss old grandma bernie she was an amazing lady..no doubts about it
also had some heart to heart with ole uncle mike..he's a cool dude too



SCHOOL


is gonna be fun this year.


homecoming is already this week

i'm gonna make it the best...

last year with james at school...also my brother and some good friends that i wont be seeing in awhile after this year is over

sometimes i get a little sad thinking about it. but then i think that it does have to happen sometime and i cant hang on to em forever...plus things do change but if you really are that close to someone nothing between you will

thats pretty reasurring.



CROss CooUNTry


is awesome


i love to run..even though it does kill me

i just have an urge to want to get better.. and that helps a lot


I've still be drawing..not as much as i used to and i have gotten some use out of my paints

...also want to get better



tomorrow...is the Helmville rodeo


something that definitely doesnt ever change.

get to see all your inbred cousins running around and riding bulls.. then hanging out at the copperqueen

plus get to see my red hed friend katie....also distant cousin lol


lots of stories with her




so now..i'm pretty excited for it



ANNNND...THAT about catches ya uppp for a few morre weeks until something amazing happens or i have another trippy dream.

cheer me up

the four days i've pretty much been living with james

even though i think he/family is sick of me i had a good time


little sawyer had a bunny in the fair and i had x country so we stayed in a hotel

me and james did some fun stuff..played some bibleland and austin power trivia

the fair got boring pretty fast but i got to see lots of my little buddies..katie included

rodeo wasn't as good as helmville's but it was still great

my long lost cousin rode a bull...but i wasnt paying attention and missed him

jeeeez

oh well next time

derby was also great.. gotta see my ashton and jen

they can be the best


about all day and last night i've been feeling a little down.
over the dumbest thing.
but everytime i think about it i feel bad again

its like a horrible song that you cant get out of your head....gaaaahd and its so stupid too!


oh well i think i'm getting over my "depression"

it will be better




cross country is pretty fun

i'm liking it alot

maybe.......maaaaaaybe this might be the sport i dont have second thoughts on

schoool is soooo close


nooooooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Hey Jude

wellll...thursday james came down


it was great


great mouse detective is ammmaaazing..i can also beat james up lol jk but i'll have time to work on it


on friday i went down to rylee's and stayed in the tree fort.


it was just like old times, except the doors a lot smaller

we ambushed the boys with shaving cream, froze to death, and played pictionary

it was prettty efffin awesome i'd say


saturday was elliston days of course

it was ok i hung out with a few friends and watched a movie at rivers.

the whole town didnt feel like doing anything great for it so it was pretty much just a big get together for something to do

i didnt feel like doing anything afterwards...i just wanted to sleep

sometimes i just need to lay back and not do anything at all


and that was just fine with me


mondaaay i had cross country

it wasnt terrible

i really want to do good in it

so..i'll have to get on that lol




summer is slippping awwaaay

but i think i've spent most of it welll


wish i could see more of the cousins.. instead of just waiting for another funeral

but there's always christmas

lately i've been having theses cravings to be creative

...so i cut up a dress and painted some paintings

painting seems to have won me over again

i'm glad it finally did because now i enjoy it a lot more than i used to

the concert on saturday was great

it wasn't really my music but it was still pretty fun

my cousin curtis came along with me

he had fun

we went to james's afterwards and walked around town

...i was scared

james didnt care..lol jk

but it was still made my night

my cousins left me

but levi and his friend will be here tomorrow

so it wont be so bad

my mom called james "jamesy boy" today haha it was funny cuz thats what james's mom calls him

weeeiiiird

thats all i have to say..about that

on saturday night me, chy, james, joe, and dillon for a little while went to the helena fair.

it was amaaazinnnng

me and james went on the ferris wheel..had to wait in line for one for awhile but it was definitely worth it.. joe and chy went on their crazy rides...ggaaaay haha

i was pretty stoked to see james because i hadn't seen him in awhile. it seems like i adjust to not

seeing him for a long time and i can handle it, but then once i finally do see him i have to start all

over and readjust to not thinking about him every 2 seconds...but still thinking about him

but this week shouldnt be a big deal anyway, i'm

just gonna be there for like a couple days its

kind of pointless...but oh well

nothing too exciting goes on there...i clean constantly, cook, then clean more....then wait and then sleep

i like their dogs though they are fun. one of got cut by the mower and i had to wrap it. it was pretty gruesome.

today rylee called me and asked me if i wanted to help her build a dam...and of course i said yes. it was way fun. we built it in her crick and it only got to barely our knees. we found a bouncy ball that looked like a meatball. at first we thought it was a weird rock but once i threw it..it came back it was pretty awesome haha.

then we tried taking pictures of ourselves underwater...it was a tough

then bo threw rocks at us.. and i got mad at sutton because he took the damn dirtbike from me. i was so mad. we got in a tussle and he pushed me in the gravel and i got all scraped up.

stupid button.

oh welll he made cupcakes later so i forgave him

today i started painting again and this time i think it has a chance...

i've been super tired all day

but i want to stay up all night

wondelightfully gogreat

i have to leave on monday to start my summer job.

i'm a little depressed about it. it wont be too bad though hopefully. i hope i dont eff things up like messing up on the casseroles haha.


but i definitely had an awesome weekend before this weeks about to start.

me and chy went camping on thursday.


it was crazy fun.


we did it in just the spur of the moment. we didnt pay or anything that night haha. we just grabbed a tent annd a sleeping bag and went up.


we tried to stay up while sittin criss crossed at the campfire in the dirt. we ran out of things to talk about after awhile haha.

i also had to drag a huge stump there too haha it was so funny.



friday night joe, james, and david all came down to stay.

it was great fun.

i finally got to actually hang out with joe and david. they are a lot of fun.

i got to know joe more and found out more about him. it made me feel good that there's someone else out there who occasionaly drools lol.

me and chy's tent broke it was a sad sight. but i was still proud of it.

everyone went to sleep around 3ish i guess except me and james who were set on staying up till 4 even though we had no way of knowing the time without being lazy. i think i dozed off a few times.

me and james had some good talks. i'm glad i got to tell him some stuff that i usually dont get to say.

he is mmmmmmaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzinnnnnnnnnng


in the morning it was hot and stuffy and i had no sleep. chy and i got into a little bit of a tussle because she was being monsterous and took my damn pillow lol.

the phillips family and the boys went on they're bicycle adventure while me and chy tried to sleep with the bugs outside.

after awhile we made our way to big rock.

joe and james got to go swimmin with us.

it was fun.

seth and river teased me. but i'm used to it and it doesnt bug me too much.

but sometimes it gets a little annoying.


it was sad to see our friends joe and james leave me and chy but they probably needed to go i bet they were extremely tired.


i went home and sleep. chy ate chinese.


rylee came down to get me and woke me up and told me to come down to big rock . i think i was half asleep haha. i told i'd be down there in a half an hour haha. but as soon as she left i was dead again.



wellllllllllllllllllllllllll now im back on the computer and i'm feeling a little depressed like ever year.

i just dont want to miss out on anything.


i will also go mental not being able to hang out with chy or talk to james.


but i cant complain much i still have saturday and sunday to myself.





i'll most likely live again

i love you sharpie

well this is going to be a long one.....

we went to transfomers on tuesday with brian, chy, and james. it was pretty good. all of my family went camping instead. i felt a little bad at first but then i was so happy i didnt go because i missed my dad acting stupid and my mom catching seth puke at 5 in the morning, from drinking all night.

after we went to transformers we walked down this creepy alley to starbucks..im not gonna lie i was a little anxious to get back to the car. buuut i survived. me and chy decided that we needed to stop by big rock. it was really warm. i wanted to jump in so bad, but we seen someone there that we didnt know just sitting there. no one wanted to ask who it was till brian finally said helllooo. it was just shanna. i was so excited and i was laughing so much. i dont mind shanna anymore she is alright to me these days.

me and chy jumped in finally. i was wearing a jean skirt and it was really awkward to swim. next time i do that i'm just gonna strip down because honestly i really don't care if someone sees me in my underwear that is equalivent to my bikini.

it was warm....afterwards i was cold.

went to my house got joe's guitar tried to squish a spider(failed).

the next day i went down to the senecal homestead with my mom. i was pretty excited because i wanted to see everyone. the homestead was this old beat up cabin that my great great grandpa had when they moved cows and what not over there. you cant stay there now. but anyway its been handed down to my great uncle george and its just tradition all the senecal cousins go down there on the 4th. even my mom did when she was a kid.

me and my mom decided that we wanted to hike to louis lake. someone told us it was just a mile over the hills....well theres a lot of hills. my mom was so determined to find it. we hike all over. and got chased by some angry horses haha it was funny. i was pretty tired but my mom wanted to find it. soon enough we gave up and walked back to homestead. the crick felt sooo good.

after that i found my cousin allyson(drake's little sister) we only get to see each other at the 4th so it was cool we got to hang out, and she was the only female cousin my age there. we found my little cousin riley and had an intense water fight. haha he really did drench me. but i got him pretty good.

then doug took us on his annual jeep ride all over the hills and what not. riley fell asleep on my lap he was so cute. sutton threw a firecracker and it accidently landed by me and sawyer it burnt my elbow. but not bad.

at night allyson and bailey wanted to ambush the boys with some saturn missiles i was up for it until we got closer and i realized that i am very gun shy/ scared of firecrackers lol. and i chickened out. i'm glad i listened to my instinct because troy had some firecrackers and drake had some of his own staturn missiles and was throwing right back at them. i think i would of cried. we then followed tradition and lit some sparklers, and grabbed a blanket to watch the fireworks. me and allyson were a little close and some of the artillery shells were a little low. i just heard my uncle johnny yell "get down" haha and we just rolled into our blanket so we didnt get hit from sparks. after all the excitement..smores sounded pretty dang good.

later on me and allyson made our way up to the grown up fire and listened to their funny stories about getting in trouble and having parties, and also knowing that the boys were stealing their alocohol and thinking they had been so sneeky about it. haha its so funny when you get up to the homestead its just a bunch of family and its not that big of a deal for some of the highschoolers to pop out a beer when the adults aren't around.

when all of the old people decided to hit the sack trent, seth, drew duncan, drake, and troy took over the fire.

me and allyson listened to their stories...i have no idea how long we were out there or how late.

we finally headed up to the tent thing but on our way there we heard some noises. we shined the flash light over there only to find uncle eddy in his whitey tidies haha it was great it was just perfect timing i couldnt stop laughing.

we woke up to drakes sparkler bomb the next day. it was a big one.

by the end of this i was covered in dirt from head to toe. my knees were stratched up, mosquito bites all over, and i was extremely tired. awwwwh it felt good. thats the way your supposed to feel if you spent your time at the homestead the right way.

summer is starting to feel like its slipping away because we are almost half way through july.

it well all be ok though

i might get to see james tomorrow

iiiiiiiiiii aaaaaammmmmmmmmm stoooooookkkkkkkkkkkeed

15 ft waves

i hung out with james 3 days in a row...i hope he is not sick of me lol

thursday night i was there till 12 and i felt pretty bad considering it was a week day and his parents were probably wondering what i was doing there.

friday night we went to brian's and watched uncle buck and i played with an etchy sketch (which i effing love!) that was pretty fun

saturday night me and chy went to james's but brian wasn't there. i felt bad for chy for awhile.

it was still fun. me and jamesy watched an awesome cake decorator make scooby doo. i want to be able to do that some day. later i felt pretty gay because i felt stupid like people had to drag me around all the time. it just kind of made me feel bad and dumb.

i had another crazy dream last night

here's how it went...

i don't remember all of it but i was in jail because i messed up on something but jail was outside and it was like a little dome of bars. i shared my dome thing with ashley kent, trent, rylee, and maybe seth. we just stayed in sleeping bags there. i was having a drawing competition with someone who said they were better. i had to be in jail for 6 months. then... i'm not sure what all happened. but for some reason we were having a memorial/ new funeral for my grandma and i had to pour this tea mixed with stuff over something. i cried just as much as i did before. and everyone thought it was stupid. but i couldnt help it even though it had been a long time. ....then my dream sorta of died off and it got mixed up with a bunch of different things like me riding tiny motorbike with rylee haha

but jeez my dreams have been a little weird.

i have exactly 20 days before i have to go work and learn to cook

i better live it up

rainbow expressions

i had the craziest dream last night


first........ i was at this library/bank thing and i was on one of the computers and i was sitting next to this lady who was like in her 20s and was an art teacher (looked like ms. ainsworth). she asked me if i was better than some of her students and i was like bragging and i told her yeah. then we wanted to leave. for some reason we weren't allowed to. so this huge guy held off these guards and we ran out. it was raining hardcore and i couldn't even see but i just kept running, then i got to the elliston school i looked around and saw two people, they looked like bo and troy, so i kept running from them like i was playing kick the can. i thought i could run to rylee's house, but when i got there i realized it was my own house. i banged on the door and rung the door bell but my mom wouldn't let me in. i begged forever and she finally opened the door. when i got inside there was this length wise mirror and i walked inside of it (kinda like alice in wonderland).....i'm not sure what happened after that but i think was happy.


so yeah it was a pretty weird dream, i'm not sure what all of it mean though.



basketball camp is this week, last night wasn't too bad as i thought it'd be. i decided that i really don't suck i'm just average and i shouldn't compare myself all the time to people like danni and syd.

Strawberry Lime

summer is just starting to get good

it's been really hot out and i'm starting to get tan...kinda scares me considering i dont have to be outside very long to get a vicious tan line.

i made an s sticker and stuck it on me all day and layed outside...it worked pretty good.. its sweet

big rock is the place to be these days and i've already floated the river.

I was supposed to go to the lake with chy this weekend and go camping with the fam but it sounds like i wont.

i want to do so much this summer but i think the more i talk about it the more time i waste

basketball camp is next week it should be ok

i hope seth brings me into deer lodge this weekend

he always promises me he will..but never holds on to it

sometimes i just want to scream at him..but i do understand why he doesnt want to drag his little sister around, i wouldnt want to bring my little brothers

i dont have to work till july 20

so im pretty stoked

sizzzling 7up

last weekend was pretty great

it was my cousin's tara's wedding reception and all my cousins came down.

andrew and curtis are my closest cousins because we're all the same age. i have an awesome time with them we got a lot of stories.

katie also came down and that made me happy because i havent seen her in awhile.

we mainly just chilled out and watched my uncles get drunk....my dad was pretty embarrassing haha i wont get into that

this week is church camp.

it is so boring now. we pray and we color.

and thats it

lol oh well its probably good for me

lately though it seems like i've been doing a ton of stuff that i really dont feel like doing

and people have been having a lot more control over what they think i should do

also i hate how things have to be planned or routine...why cant things just been spontaneous and fun

oh well......it will get better

i just need to stop worrying about stupid things and i need to start taking advantage of elliston and go camping every once in awhile.

im still not sure on the job situation......

maybe i should just like the fact that i dont have to do anything right now till july

i've been tired again

i dont know why

and i've also been having some rather craaaazy dreams that i cant recall at the moment but they were pretty strange

i miss bo and troy

i haven't took a hike/floated the river/ played kick the can with those crazy hooligans in a long time

i hope i hang out with them soon before they're too cool for me lol

laziness

wow

it is way too cold out to be summer

there is nothing i can do right now...and lately i've been sleeping all day

sometimes i'll sleep even when i'm not even tired

i think i do it just for something to do, because everytime i do i dream about something.

today's dream was really weird....

me, james, and some freshmen snuck out from somewhere at night and went down to a river to swim, even though it was too high. we got there and no one else wanted to swim anymore, but i still jumped in right away. the river was too fast and i couldn't get on the rock ledge, but i wasn't even that scared. then someone pulled me out.

it was crazy

after i woke up i got up and i took a step, except my foot was asleep and it slid right from under me, just like someone would fall on ice. it was so crazy, i've never had that happen to me lol.

i went to james's house again today and it was fun, i'm glad we've been hanging out a lot lately and i hope it will be like that this summer

there's a basketball tournament that i might play on sunday and i really don't want to. i dont even like basketball that much but i always feel like i have to. maybe if i get better in something else i wont play anymore.

i'm downloading soo many country songs

and i dont care what you haters say lol

crabapples

Last day of school....tomorrow

it is a little depressing because ...first of all i won't hardly see my friends hopefully not including james and i will miss being a dumb freshman (as crazy as that sounds)

oh well


it will be a ton of fun next year


I was so happy today!


I couldn't stop smiling when i got on the bus...chy thought i was stoned haha




A guy from Germany stayed at our house last night

it was way cool

my mom was paranoid even if he was way nice haha

she made us lock our doors and didnt sleep ... the WHOLE night hahaha
she is funny

I went to james's before i went home and it was fun

even though everytime his dad asks me something im like ..."huh?....something something...mumble"

it is so gay

i need to learn how to talk/ hear and not be so shy

seth made me so mad the other day, he just left me after school

he always does that to me

it drives me seriously crazy

this is a towel suit pretty sweet eh?

from head to toes

This weekend i stayed pretty busy which is nice, cuz i hate wasted weekends


on friday i went to the canyon fary with chy and we layed around in our swimsuits..it was nice.

then we looked at "cd's" for an hour in the electronic department..that was pretty funny, i felt

like a stalkers best friend.


on sunday i went to pirates of the carribean with ashley, jen, and brittney. it was long. and

confusing. but i liked it . we listened to the same ludacris sound the whole time with the

windows rolled down. me and jen just jumped/danced around the whole time.




today....i went to another movie haha Shrek 3! oh yeah


i got really tired after it was over..and the theatre was stuffy and full of people.




starbucks afterwards of course. the whole time i watched this smart, goofy, professor looking man read an enormous book...while twitching his head in a weird way.


i didnt see james at all this weekend..it was pretty depressing i must say. but seth said he'd

bring me next weekend.....so he better not bail out on me or else i'd cry and sweep my hair to

one side of my face



i think im gonna start drawing again more........i want to get better and i've been bored



i just dont know what i'll draw


if you have any ideas/comments please find me

Chameleons

Chameleons are stuck up.

Lets see.... this month has been very eventful and fun..which is not surprising because May is my favorite month/number/weather. no matter what it tends to be the best.

on my birthday James and Chy had a surprise party. it was so much fun. chy made an awesome cake and we watched cars, it was pretty freakin

amazingly great......which reminds me, i still have brian's lime in my room.. gross

track is over, which is nice but im starting to feel the laziness coming on now

On saturday James came to my house, he's pretty brave i must say. My dad had a few too many and was a complete retard it was so embarrassing. i hope James didnt get too freaked out.

river came down too and rampaged through my room. i hate it when he does that. he almost started to get in my drawers....that'd be weird

oh well though its river and i love him like he's another broha

there's hardly anything to do in elliston. i had no idea what to do.

i felt terrible. We went up to elliston creek because thats all i could think of. that definitely qualifies for the best time ever.

nice to think about when you're being lectured in a stuffy classroom.

i can't wait for school to just be over with. it seems so pointless, with exceptions of ms. hunters class.

trip to helmville soon, can't wait.

it snowed so much here..it was crazy and our power was out forever. having the power out when your like 7 is a ton of fun..but now its just annoying

well..........thats about it, i dont think its quite as good as the next harry potter book but i tried

with all this time maybe i'll start writing more blogs and finally change the "dumb like you" thing.

2M8ToS RNt VGtBLZ

haha ok...thats the last one i'll do

diabolically delightful

So this weekend was pretty much amazing...

i went to Helmville and stayed at katie hill's. when i got there we decided that we needed to paint shamrocks..so we got a can of spray paint and tried to paint shamrocks on the road with our little stencil and nobody seeing us.

Katie's grandma is so awesome i just love her. she'd hide with us and tell us when the coast was clear.

After that we rode in a parade through helmville. only about 20 people watched because everyone else was in it. neil is such a goofy kid. i just love him.

then we went to the copperqueen and played some fooseball i totally suck but it was great. levi was way good.

helmville was putting on a dance so we went down there and it was also a ton of fun. I finally got to jitterbug so it made my night. I danced with cody baker and this one carroll kid, they were really good

they flipped me in the air it was crazy

i love helmville.. everyone there is my cousin except a few and if someone doesnt know me then they'll know i'm bernadette's grandkid or one of those senecals.

i miss going there but as soon as i can drive i'll definitely be making a few more trips

labor day will be coming

prom will be fun, my dress is really heavy and completely undanceable but it's cool

i hope i look ok ..haha i know i shouldnt be thinking like that but i hate leaving thinking u look fine and then going through pictures later

oh well lol

who cares

i decided that i dont care about school..i hope my grades make it this quarter

everyone is gone for close up

its so depressing

im totally phsyked for summer its going to be great..just feeling the sun puts me in a good mood

cant wait till next week!!

early out and close up kids are back

it'll be sweet

like water for chocolate

jeez..i haven't written in this thing in forever..but chy thinks its time i should

i gave up talking to people on the internet for lent

i thought it was totally going to suck but its not that bad ..i needed to start doing something else then spend my time on here

its good when ur bored but other than that, finding something else to do is getting way easier

this weekend i totally went back to the good old days and made a sweet snow fort

it felt good to act like a little kid again ..so great

school isn't too bad its getting better now that winter is starting to go away
i dont mind snow but it gets gay when u can't do anything in elliston

i didnt get to hang out with james at all this weekend so it sucked, but bridgett jone's diary is an amazing movie.


oh and i ran 3 miles...well walked some but it was great

me and chy will be awesome soon

so don't doubt us

ahh!! i can't believe chy just left me hanging on this thing....wtf's up with that? lol


well....anyway i think i screwed up bigtime..like hardcore..

i'm soo dumb...ahh!! i hate this

well anyway.....funny story to lighten up the mood

ok..so i went to the school for lunch and..u know where u pick up those trays...well there was this really sick one that still had food on it and i was like..."ahh! sick" so i grabbed the one underneath and some how all the trays just fell it was like ..."bang!!" and i was like..."fuck"

so then all the little kids started clapping....and i was beet red

hahaha it was amazing

i felt like such a retard

kellie and i just laughed....

my blog

so i was thinkin and i decided that i'd make my own blog
cuz its kinda weird havin one with two people on it
so i guess if u wanna go to my own then its..
inbetweenthepages.blogspot.com

2007

ok...so for new years.....
me, james, jesso, and some other ppl went to fairmont and stayed the night. we got there and went swimming..there wasnt supposed to be any alcohol but i figured there'd be some anyway. well, kyla got drunk and was just all over the place, jesso was trying to keep her under control it was pretty funny. but then we found these california kids that were wasted and they tore up the hotel room, and broke a lamp shade. me, james, and polly went out on adventures around the hotel just doing really dumb random things but it was the best. then at 4:00 we went swimming again and stayed there forever. polly left but me, james, and jamin stayed till 7:30 it was crazy. so then we wernt even that tired so we just layed down on some super soft couches. jamin fell asleep so then me and james made paper airplanes and looked at this map. it was pretty fun..i cant really think of other things that happend...hmm....it was cool though i guess

this better be a good year......

New Years

so i think this is really gay but i guess i'll "blog" for you or whatever...

ok so whenever you see pink letters that means that i typed it (cheyenne)

new years pretty much rocked this year. here is my frickin sweet story from it....

so i went into dl for new years and me and sam and kaila and madison went and just like drove around and kaila was like oh lets find some drunk guys ...

and so we were drivin along and theres these two on the sidewalk and kaila like hollers out the window "hey baby" and like we drive away and go back and so were stopped at the light and sams got her window down and kailas like hollerin out the window to them and stuff and so one of the guys like starts to come over to the truck...

adn kailas still bein retarded and hollerin at them and so he's like comin up to the truck and tryin to give us this firework thing and sam is like freakinout tryin to rol lup the window..and we cant go anywhere cuz the light is red...

and so she's like screamin and stuff and the guy is like right at the window and finally she finds the right button and she's like omg roll up faster! and we're like waitin for the light to turn green and ...
FINALLy it does and we were like omg that ws scary and the guys like standin in the middle of the street back where we were

so...like a couple hours later that night we goand pick up kenneth and allan and danny and we're all drivin around but then we drop allan and danny off and then kaila..and all night kaila wanted to find drunk guys..
so we go and drop her off and now its just me sam and kenneth in the front and madison in teh back and we turn the corner and we're goin up this street and we see this guy in the middle of the road

and so we pull up to him and its the same exactly guy as before..totallywaste...and so we stop and he just stands there. so sam swerves around him and we were like lets go back so we flip a U-y and go back to teh guy..

and he's still standin in teh street so we like swerv and go right...then sam turns around again and we go back to him and then we go onto this street and turn around and we're stopped at a stop sign...

and then the guy just like comes up to the truck and like comes right up to the front of it and starts like frickin humpin the front of the truck...and he's like doin stuff with his tongue and everything

and at first we were like laughin but then the guywould not get off so liek sam is freakin out and she's like omg kenneth what do i do! and he's like put it in reverse and floor it ...

sams like freakin out and she puts it in neutral and is like revin it up and she's omg im not goin anwhere...and kennehts like put it in neutral so she does and like we're goin back but like the guy just like keeps up with us and is still like doin the truck
so finally he like goes to teh side of the truck and we thought he was gonna lke try to open teh door or somethin so sam puts it in drive and like floors it but we're on ice so we dotn go anywerhe and then finally we get goin and the guy turns around and just throws his beer all over the side of sams dad's truck

and we turn the corner and theres this other guy that he was wtih and heis jsut pissed and he's like standin in teh road and we drive by and we look back and they are just like runnin after us
it was so scary...so then we had to go find somewhere to wash teh now frozen beer off the window

and sams like oh lets go out to teh FFA farm and so we drive otu there and somebody is out there so we drive down to that underpass and turn around and go back and the people are still there so we drive back into town and we are like what are we gonna go...
and then sams like omg..we are so dumb..we coulda just went to I-90 and washed it off so we go there adn it takes sam forever to get it off adn finally we get it off and we are like jeez..we're so dumb why didnt we think of that earlier
.....THE ENd


...thats a super long story