in good company

new years was pretty crazy..

First I had practice and i had to wait for seth, so i went to james's for awhile and watched the price is right with him and marne.

Went...to practice and then went to James's again.

I had to go home with seth and get ready as fast as i could because chy was leaving soon so.. i took a shower and blow dried my hair in 10.1254 seconds.

Me and chy headed over to james's house and then joe and laura met up with us.

We played scattegories.. it was pretty fun

we then went to pizza hut where i ate sooo much

i can eat a lot of pizza and i think i've gotten over my politeness with food around james we drank some cider and then went back to james's..

me and chy were having trouble with where were staying the night at. it was really stressing me out big time... we then went to brendons

it was ok i played some pool that i sucked at, but james wasn't feeling being there too much so me and him went back to his house

i felt awful for being at his house so much.. i figured his parents were sick of me being there ALL DAY sooo...i dont know i was really stressed out which kinda sucked

i couldnt find a place to stay so i decided to just go to brendons

after me and james drank our china and watched the miller boys light fireworks I went to brendon's garage.

it was pretty fun there i didnt drink but i got to watch some other people do it and that was pretty entertaining

i slept in a basement on a comfy couch then got up and headed home with chy

i was soooo tired but i went to helena anyway

i was pretttty much drained



After my practice today james and brigid rode home with me and seth.

me and james made amaaazing oatmeal cookies

awwh i ate so many

we had a really fun day it really felt good and it was a nice way to end the break

me and james always do have a good time though.. he's not just my boyfriend he's one of my best friends and that comes in handy

its beeen a year since we started talking...craaaazy

i lub him very much



nooooooahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! not school tomorrow !

rainy days in the snow

wow basketball is almost halfway done


weird...


I'm glad that i decided to do basketball.. it can be a huge pain and extremely stressful but i guess i stay busy.

A normal day consists of me waking up riding with seth to school..getting there just before the bell (every time).. then sittin in school... practice......and finally i get home around 7 or sometimes 8ish

i get home and eat, call james, and sleep

it gets so routine which sucks because things just start to blurr but i dont know how else to do it.

I also wrecked my mom's car....pretty intensely scary


it wasn't horrible but it did kinda shake me up i dont know if i'm a good driver anymore even if it wasnt that much of my fault oh well

wrecking the car put a huge stress on me because now there arent as many vehicles at my house for us to get around in... the little car is getting worked on so we just have the blue truck...HUGE GAS HOG...which sucks because gas is pretty darn expensive now.

i hate having to take turns paying for gas with seth..it leaves me so broke all the time..

plus we need a place to stay once seth's morning practices start..

theres no apartments in deer lodge that we can stay at without being in an old hospital or above a bar.

sooooo.... not really sure on that

i dont know what we're going to do

its nice to just put it back in your head and forget about it for awhile


christmas break is so nice...


christmas was also nice



i baked so much before christmas it was kinda fun to help mom and what not. On christmas eve we went to my aunt amy's where we had a scavenger hunt

ivy and mom were on my team

my aunt amy had all these clues and prizes hiding around elliston and we had to go find them before everyone else

it was cool

most of the clues were questions about places in elliston i didnt really know about like where old hotels were.. my mom knew a few but we had to go to cheat and go to the bar to ask some people


after our scavenger hunt we went to my grandma and grandpa johnson's. it was alright. not very fun. I hardly talk to any of my relatives there and i just feel weird there

its always so crowded because my grandma sold the farm for a new little house..everything is just different none of the traditions are hardly there anymore.

when we got home there was a bonfire still going on up at my aunt amy's, but i was pretty tired so i just stuck around at the house.

i went to bed early but my cousin andrew came and woke me up

we stayed up watching tv and finally went to bed

christmas morning was pretty cool

i got a digital camera that i didnt even expect. i didnt think i'd even get as much as i did. it was pretty exciting.

james got me a really cute zip up sweat shirt, a bag, and some sweet pajama pants

marne also got me some griz shorts and lip gloss


they are too good to me


we had dinner at our house so all the senecal relatives came down

i really like that side of the family and all the cousins are pretty dang awesome so it was a pretty fun time

finally all the cousins left and things have mellowed out a lot

sooo much leftovers still..mmmmmmm...


i've been wanting to go to a movie during the break but things just keep not working out. i really want to because i wont have a lot of weekends left because of basketball games.

i dunnoooo...i hate getting excited and then disappointed

i feel very babyish when i get all sad over it but it just sucks you know


oh welll.... i'm just frustated because there is nothing to do here


and i dont want to spend my break doing nothing


its getting harder to go to deer lodge just to hang out now too because we have to drive there every day for practice

now we have to start saving trips and try to avoid going as much


i dont know


i shouldn't complain

i am pretty happy right now

thanks to my best friend the one and only..du duh duhhh....cheyeennnnnee


and of course the boyfreind who makes me feel bettter all time..JA JA JAaaaaaaaaaaaaames


so things are good


but really lets get some snow instead of just cold

that would be delightful


oooor..lets just skip to spring


that would be amazing

Little Yellow Kitten

awwh this weekend has been great





first starting on friday i got in a huge fight with my mom which kind of sucked.



she can be so crazy mean sometimes.



but i drove into deer lodge and saw james



that made me feel all happy again. we watched some of the griz game and wrestled in the basement.



it was pretty fun



me, james, and jessica were all gonna hang out for james's rebellion weekend, but jess was a little late coming back from billings so i ended up staying at james's



i felt really bad because i thought that james's parents thought i was just making excuses or something to stay..i dont know that doesnt even make sense..i just get so paranoid



it all worked out though



we had a little sleepover and we played some wii games with jake.



pretty soon james's mom came down and i slept up in james's room



it was so cozy



after staying with james it felt like i got a lot closer...which is pretty dang close



i really am the happiest when i'm around him



he just makes me feel better about everything.. and it's always nice to know for sure that they feel the same way



awwhh



its so wonderdelightecstatically perfect....









On Sunday



i drove home early and then went to church





i'm still tired





i dont want schooooooll noooooo





but i think this weekend got me refreshed to last another week





so i will live...





which is good : )

take it easy on me

do you ever wonder what friends you'll have for the rest of your life. like what will happen when you start to get older.

time scares me.

I look at a lot of people and think.. I dont think i'll ever remember this person when i'm old. that depresses me. I start to think how I haven't became that close to many people this last year.

After I started getting depressed thinking about that last night.. I thought about it this morning and realized how many people I really am close to.

I do have people that care about me.. and there is many people that I will think back and remember them.

so what if we don't keep up forever with each other. Our memories will still stay there.

That makes me feel happy.

I dont know why I think about this now

sometimes I just can't help but think about the future.

years go by fast

I think its because me and ry we're talking about our grandmas and how we missed them so much.

It doesnt even feel that long ago. I lose track.

most of that I just push back and pretend like it never happened. but it did and it does.

my great uncle is dying and it doesnt seem long ago at all when he was passing out candy on Halloween.

time is going too fast for me.

Maybe when thanksgiving comes things will slow down again when I see all my family. Me, andrew, and curtis will go off and do the same things we do every year.. things that haven't seemed to change like everything else.

oh well

that was my emotional input of the month or so

school has been ok I don't have any hard classes so that makes it better.

on Halloween I went trick or treating

I felt like a teenager trying to be a rebel even though everyone else is doing it.

Next year I just want to sit at home and pass out candy.

that seems to be just fine to me.. i like to see all the little kids trick or treating its cute.

I've been so tired this whole week

every morning I keep sleeping in more and more

When basketball starts it will be even worse.. I'll have no time

I'm also tired of everyones so called "drama" its so stupid

I hate it when anyone even says that word because its so ...just dumb

nobody cares about pointless he said she said things...ecspecially me

so stop telling me

i DONT care

I think I've gotten meaner this year.. but I've also gotten less shy

connection? I think so.

I just want to sleep, watch cartoons, draw a picture... then lay out in the grass by kittens playing with my toes.

awwhh I cant wait till spring

i'm a witch!!

cross country is over now

its kinda of a relief because now i wont be so stressed and busy finding rides and what not.

but it is a little sad

now i have to decide on if i'll do basketball

shucks


this weekend has been amazing


it seemed to have went on for so long


now it'll be hard to get into school mode...awwh depressssssing haha


me and chy went to helena on thursday bought some hats and just chilled out in helena forever

it was a lot of fun


we just kinda went around everywhere


her birthday is this weekend

i am stoked


on friday me and james had quite the adventure.. made some amazing hot chocolate

TOP SECRET RECIPE!!!

it was one of the funniest things i've done in a long time

he is the greatest


i never get bored of him

i could probably go on forever talking about it


saturday was cold meet in helena and then volleyball game......and

then watched james's cute home videos lol



suuunnday = today


its been boring tried to get crafty then messed up


then ate lots of banana bread

yuummmm....

POP!

this year is starting to get good


i mean it does start to get really boring on days but i've also gotten a lot closer to people i haven't really been close to before

also this year i didnt have to "break out of my shell" i guess you could say lol

i'm not so shy around everyone


sooo... *recap



friday: football game, it was pretty awesome and afterwards we got some amazing huckleberry

milkshakes


saturday: cross country meet in butte...that kind of sucked because it was snowing and i really

sucked it up... i dont know if i could of done better or not.. it just sucks when you go in thinking

you'll do ok and then just let all these people pass you up


ouch


james came though and that brightened me up.


theeen... chy stayed over and we made a TON of carmel corn, watched/danced to cheezy love
movie, and watched scary movie while falling asleep on the couch


i hadnt had a night with chy like that in awhile

so it was pretty fun


sunnnnnndaday: james came over to see me, it was amazing sunday we layed in the grass,

played with kittens, and layed down by big rock

the whole day just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside it was a nice way to end a weekend


i just love that loser lol



schoooooooool



is ok



i get to paint..


it'll be fun

you are too sweet sunday

awwh


this morning felt like christmas


i think it's because yesterday was so amazing that it just put me in that mood.


yesterday i had a the mountain west meet in missoula.. it was pretty awesome


i knew i wasnt there to place but i really wanted my time at least under 24

and i made 23:45


so that made me happy.


then right after the coziest bus ride home i got to see james

we took the cheeka to a river and then watched the office in his basement


it fulfilled my last summer day


when i got home i just crashed out on my bed

i had so many good feelings inside it just made me sleep so good


i got up early and everyone else was up too

it felt like christmas morning


we all talked about stuff


my dad showed me pictures of him running at mountain west in the 70's haha..same hill but looks completely different


it was so cold and rainy out but our house was very warm and i ate lots of junk food

also visited rylee


we dont see each other much cause of school

but i usually save a sunday for her


it was a pretty good weekend i'd say


i hope i get some more of those to keep this year from dulling out